When I embarked on this journey with Onion, I expected that I would be responsible for all the wires and resistors etc. and expected that Onion would take care of the software side, keeping everything up to date.
I didn't expect to have to manage the entire software ecosystem as well and so the lustre is a little less now and the excitement has suffered a bit too. Rather than focus on making, I'm constantly distracted by the 'what ifs' surrounding the software, such as is it worth the investment of my time knowing that at some point there will be a critical security flaw that I cannot defend against.
However, there's an opportunity to learn and help others so it's not altogether a lost cause just yet and so I carry on in the hopes that at some point in the future @onion will pop out of the woodwork with a "Bazinga! Here's all the software improvements we've been working on in secret for the last 12 months."